Kill Your Darlings – Thursday, 1st November @ The Zoo.
A Didactic Tale to accompany Davy Dillinger.
Jesse is drawn in the draft and says goodbye to his mother, his lover and baby brother. As he boards the train, he breaks a heart shaped pendant. He gives one half to Maria and keeps the other for himself, as a token of each other’s memory should he not return home.
5 years pass. Jesse survives his dutiful deeds of battle but his physical exterior is a disheveled shadow, his appearance; barely recognizable. Jesse discovers Maria in the street and approaches her under the mask of his five year service. After his trying tests of her fidelity, Jesse reveals himself as the lost love and the two plan to wed. God looks down upon Jesse in utter disgust and disapproval for the things he’s done and the things he will do.
The soundtrack to the characters’ honeymoon. Placing the romanticism of their marriage aside to subsidize their years of physical absence.
As Maria sleeps, Jesse is still haunted by the cruelty he’s seen and has contributed to. The addiction to liquor and nicotine only numbs his pain and brain for so long before he requires psychological help. Help he decides never to get, allowing his thoughts to stew and consume him.
With no outlet to his survivor’s guilt and regret, he turns himself onto Maria. The marriage is denounced, words are exchanged and actions of physicality turn from sensual to vicious.
Maria reaches breaking point and fears for her own safety. She empowers herself with a gun, attempting to shoot a possessed Jesse. After nineteen bullets fail to make contact with the man’s torso, Maria surrenders the weapon before surrendering herself. Whether due to an act of God’s divination to disallow Jesse an easy entry to Heaven or Maria’s inexperience with a firearm, Jesse is unscathed from the conflict, only to grab the gun with it’s last remaining shot, and aim straight for Maria.
Jesse runs far from the lifeless body of his former love. His reality and heart are broken and start to fill with a deep regret. As the rain pours down, he tries to escape town, clasping the half-heart at his neck, the last remaining memory he has of Maria.
October. (deus ex machina)
It all becomes too much for Jesse. With no amount of vices aiding to his self-loathing, he prays to God to blame him for the loss of Maria. God offers him no form of redeeming salvation, leading Jesse to the inevitable….